This is where I need to tell the truth. I have no idea how to keep this blog alive or make it cool. I don't know how to really follow blogs, or put all the cool little things on my blog. I admit a very large portion of me doesn't want to take the time to do this. Yes I'm overwhelmed. I can't just continue to keep up pretenses. I can type. Got that going for me. I can barely upload photos, i wish i could upload photos like my friend Aina on her blog, but I have no clue how to do it and always forget to ask her.
I'm a perfectionist sometimes and i don't always want to publish something I've written unless its been edited a hundred times. I'm just getting back to the purpose of this blog and why it exists. I have many ideas for it...topics, pics, recipes (only 1 really), the way it should look....but now i beg the question--to myself, "Are you willing? Willing to stay with it and do what it takes?"
My writer side says YES! my transient side says "nah, whats the next thing?" My Artsy side says "maybe this should just be a photo blog" My Designer says "make it a fashion blog" .... see, very conflicting.
And. When I blog/post, who should i be writing to? Now i'm so confused! Am I writing to myself? To friends? Family? To the people who I wish read my blog? who would that be anyway?
Contemplating some very heavy things right now....
